Solo Mum in All Souls S.S

Danielle still cannot get by in Sunday School without me. Guess it's gonna take more time than expected. Feel quite distressed that I'm not able to listen to the sermon week after week yet know that my presence is needed at Sunday School, a place where Danielle can interact in a Christian environment. But it doesn't help that I am the ONLY mummy tending to her child at Sunday School. All the other mummies just leave their kids there and go up for service. Except me...

Though the teachers are always v nice about it, they hint to me that I should leave her there alone soon. It's not that I don't want to but she really keeps me by her side and even though I tell her gently that 'mummy needs to accompany Papa and listen to God's words', I can't pull myself away from her strong grip and that forlorn look on her face. :( Well, guess I have to leave this in God's hands. She can't help having anxiety attacks at 2.

(* that's Danielle in the bright pink cardigan, btw.)

Geri sent me a really good inspirational verse the other day and I really hope I can apply it to my life. The verse was:

Matthew 8:13
13Then Jesus said to the centurion, "Go your way; and as you have believed, so let it be done for you." And his servant was healed that same hour.

It goes on to say:
'There is no particular level your faith must reach before God gives you what you are asking for. Your faith does not initiate God's giving. God has already given to you all things that pertain to life and godliness. (2 Peter 1:3) His blessings are pressing on you already! And at whatever level of faith you are at, God will respond...don't fix your eyes on how much faith you have or don't have. Fix your eyes on the One who loves you, who has already given you what you need. When you come to Him, simply believe that He is waiting to meet your expectation. He will say to you, "Go your way; and as you have believed, so let it be done for you.'

Steph also sent something similar that was from a book she's currently reading about a man's encounter with God. The man relates this:

Then Jesus said something that absolutely melted me, and I have never been able to forget it.. "I did this for you, son, just because you asked me to. You don’t know how I long to do for my children if they would only ask Me and believe Me. Many times they beg and cry and pray but they don’t believe. And I cannot answer their prayers unless they have faith, because I cannot violate the Word. But how often I long to help them if only they would let Me by taking Me at My Word and bringing Me their problems, trusting Me to undertake for them."

It means a lot to me to receive all these, y'know. Through your actions, I feel like God is looking out for me. And that everywhere I turn, even before I fall, someone's already there waiting to catch me. I'm glad that I am surrounded by people who love God, fear Him or constantly thirst to know Him more. Thanks girls, for all your emails, sms-es, comments on blogs and calls. U know who you are... and I thank God for you.

Just a side note here. We met Stephie's friend, Reuben for lunch today. He actually made the effort to attend our 930am church service even tho' his usual church routine is to attend the 11am service at his church. Was touched... We yumcha-ed in Chinatown then said our farewells at Regent St. There was a festival going on there and the pram simply could not get through all the human traffic! So we told Reuben to go ahead and explore on his own lah. All in all, we enjoyed ourselves and we hope to see more of him. Oh ya! And he passed me a copy of HerWorld! Thanks Steph! Though 8 Days would've been waaaaay better, he couldn't get a copy lah! Never mind! I will savour my HerWorld and pretend I am a 'tai tai' for a day. :)